How many times do you have to fall in love and have your heart broken before you find “the one” that will cherish and protect your heart? I have no idea, I gave up on that a long time ago. No matter what advice or rule book you have read in the past you never know what peoples intensions are. Their actions must speak louder than any sweet talk he or she might throw your way. It is ok to say no. Never settle for the second best because he or she told you that’s all you can get. People don’t know very much these days about personal interaction. I think that people have become socially retarded due to media and technology. We have become disconnected from one another. People break up via email, text message, Facebook and even Twitter. Why do people think that kind of behavior is ok? Because you put up with it. If you learn to say hell no and stop putting up with crap from not so nice people you could have a chance at happiness with the right person.
How many men and women stay after they find out their partner has cheated on them? From things I have learned in therapy most women stay with a cheating partner. When the woman cheats the men almost always leave. I have been lied to and cheated on more than once. I have never gone back to any of them. I am very serious with my number one rule. You cheat on me it is OVER. No need to explain, no need to bother lying, no need to ever talk again. When it is over for me it is over. I have no need to try and forget he cheated on me. Not only is it a fucked up thing to do but you are also putting your partners life in danger. Something I don’t think people think about in the heat of the affair.
True story,the moment I think I might give a guy a chance he does something like want to sleep with me and ask for my friends number. Then when confronted, he bold face lies about it. I had to think for one second and my gut said he just lied to you. As I process the information that was just given to me, I hung up the phone and was not in shock at all. I have become jaded to the point where I expect a man to do something shady like that. I asked if it was true, he lied, I left. End of that story. I didn’t want to listen to his bullshit anymore. I just tuned him out as he was lying to me. It is so sad when men go to such lengths to try and sleep with you then they try and sleep with your friend. I am really glad it happened with a friend that I can trust and had no doubt that she said hell no.
Kathleen Divine would have fucked him and said “sorry Mo but he was really into me not you”. Kathleen Divine wouldn’t even think twice about it. I can’t tell you how many times I was told that a guy I was talking to was flirting with her just moments before. You have to be so insecure to even feel the need to try that move. We all know from past Blogs I have written that Kathleen Divine is very insecure, narcissistic, condescending and a washed up ageing Diva who now lives in a Senior Mobile Home Park next door to her parents. I guess business isn’t as good as it use to be. If it was still good I am sure Ms. Divine wouldn’t be forced to live in a trailer park. I bet when you look in the mirror of your new bathroom you wonder WTF happened to my life. I can tell you some of what happened Ms. Divine.
Kathleen Divine became a selfish, self centered, evil bitch. I bet you still wonder how you will find husband number 5 living in a trailer park. I know this because you told me when your parents first suggested the idea a couple of years ago. Instead of saving some of that tax free money you have made over the last decade you decided to wipe your ass with it. That’s how rich you were back in your hay day. Kathleen Divine always say, “I’m not stupid” but in real life you did fuck yourself royally. Now that you are out of the house in Orange what will you do with the $7600.00 deposit that you have on the house? My guess is you will blow it like it is tissue paper. The responsible thing to do is pay me back all that you owe me. But we all know Kathleen Divine does what is best for her and only her. The drama between us now has a court date. I know I will win so I have no worries. Then the Sheriff will come to her lounge and take her money right from the door as she makes it till I am paid back. You all should know by now that nothing is easy when dealing with Kathleen Divine. She has turned this into a Lifetime movie of the week. All I wanted was for her to do the right thing since she use to once be my best friend. I am still trying to remember the good times we had as you asked. It’s hard to do when the bad is still so hurtful and outweighs any good there once was.
MoMo Out!
Lately people have been playing the blame game with me. People blame me for trusting Kathleen Divine. Why wouldn’t I trust my now former best friend? I had no reason at all not to trust her. As the friendship developed over the years so did the trust. We have known each other since the 90ies. If you think the things I have told you about Kathleen Divine so far are all secrets, hate to break it to you but they aren’t. People aren’t stupid. People have had some of the same experiences that I have had and worse. I am well aware that I have aired dirty laundry, but if I was present and it happened to me then I can share as much of it as I please. I was recently accused of trying to body shame Kathleen Divine. I said the other ass in the photo looked better than Kathleen’s ass. Of course I know everyone on a personal level who’s asses were in this photo and I happen to think the other ass looked better. Of course none of you were there and have no idea why the photos were even taken or the full story. That was just a crumb that I dropped. What would you all do with the entire cracker? I can tell you that I am the last person who would ever shame someone on how their body looks. Kathleen Divine is the first person to shame someone on how they look. I guess that is all my fault too.
I have shared some of the horror stories, such as the things she said to me about my thighs. One night Kathleen spent the entire drunken car ride home ranting to Derek about the rolls on my thighs. All of this was done in front of me with her man friend at the time also in the car. She has tried her best to make me feel bad about my body since gastric bypass surgery. I have been berated, belittled, harassed, embarrassed, mistreated all by the queen of Size Acceptance, Kathleen Divine. The Sheer fact that Kathleen Divine claims that her Lounge is all about Size Acceptance is a great big lie. I have no idea how many times Kathleen Divine needed to be reassured that she would be the smallest/best looking one at her Lounge. That is just an old ageing diva trying to hold onto the last few one night stands before she fades away. None of this is breaking news yet for some reason people think it is my fault. If you haven’t slept with her then you know someone who has. The BBW Community is very small and very incestuous. I believe that before you hook up with someone, you might want to ask where they have been. The longer a man has been single in the BBW Community the more women he has slept with. If he hasn’t slept with anyone he might have issues. The real men who want a relationship find it and don’t play games or waste time. If you have all of the info then you can make an informed decision. Kathleen, Morgan, Fiona, and Laura all knew the lies long before I knew. That is also my fault by the way. It is my fault that my BFF’s knew Derek was lying to me and didn’t say a word till after it all blew up.
It is obvious that people have chosen sides at this point. Either you hate me and think I am bashing an innocent person. Or you are on my side and wish you could say what I am saying without any backlash. People have said they are afraid for me. What is there to be afraid of? The facts are still the same. I am the victim. I am the one who is being stalked, threatened, bullied, criminal threats made against me, attempted murder, domestic violence and so on. All of that is my fault, right? It is all my fault that I chose to date a bi-polar man. It is my fault that he was normal and medicated when we met. It is my fault that for some odd reason Kathleen Divine chose Derek over me. It is my fault that my other friend was a dirty whore and slept with Derek. It is my fault that Kathleen Divine posted photos on the internet so I could see them together just one week later. It is my fault that I met Derek in the first place at that damn Lounge. Everything is always the fault of the victim. Blame the rape victim because they were raped. If I had never done any of the above things then none of these bad things would be happening is the message people are trying to shovel my way. If it smells like bullshit then it is bullshit. None of this is my fault. When things went bad I got out ASAP and never looked back. People ask me if Kathleen Divine and I will ever be friends again. No, not in my lifetime. I have given her everything I had to give and more. There is nothing left, no friendship to save. I am not into being controlled and told how to feel. Being her friend is one sided. Read some of the older posts in case you forgot how Kathleen Divine really is.
Bitch about my Blog all you want. Bitch about it loud and clear. Make sure you send people the link so they can read it for themselves. Hate it or love it, the fact remains that you’re still reading it. You never know what I will say or do next. My life is crazy as you can read for yourself.
By the way that is also my fault 
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MoMo Out!
