My Fault?

Lately people have been playing the blame game with me. People blame me for trusting Kathleen Divine. Why wouldn’t I trust my now former best friend? I had no reason at all not to trust her. As the friendship developed over the years so did the trust. We have known each other since the 90ies. If you think the things I have told you about Kathleen Divine so far are all secrets, hate to break it to you but they aren’t. People aren’t stupid. People have had some of the same experiences that I have had and worse. I am well aware that I have aired dirty laundry, but if I was present and it happened to me then I can share as much of it as I please. I was recently accused of trying to body shame Kathleen Divine. I said the other ass in the photo looked better than Kathleen’s ass. Of course I know everyone on a personal level who’s asses were in this photo and I happen to think the other ass looked better. Of course none of you were there and have no idea why the photos were even taken or the full story. That was just a crumb that I dropped. What would you all do with the entire cracker? I can tell you that I am the last person who would ever shame someone on how their body looks. Kathleen Divine is the first person to shame someone on how they look. I guess that is all my fault too.

I have shared some of the horror stories, such as the things she said to me about my thighs. One night Kathleen spent the entire drunken car ride home ranting to Derek about the rolls on my thighs. All of this was done in front of me with her man friend at the time also in the car. She has tried her best to make me feel bad about my body since gastric bypass surgery. I have been berated, belittled, harassed, embarrassed, mistreated all by the queen of Size Acceptance, Kathleen Divine. The Sheer fact that Kathleen Divine claims that her Lounge is all about Size Acceptance is a great big lie. I have no idea how many times Kathleen Divine needed to be reassured that she would be the smallest/best looking one at her Lounge. That is just an old ageing diva trying to hold onto the last few one night stands before she fades away. None of this is breaking news yet for some reason people think it is my fault. If you haven’t slept with her then you know someone who has. The BBW Community is very small and very incestuous. I believe that before you hook up with someone, you might want to ask where they have been. The longer a man has been single in the BBW Community the more women he has slept with. If he hasn’t slept with anyone he might have issues. The real men who want a relationship find it and don’t play games or waste time. If you have all of the info then you can make an informed decision. Kathleen, Morgan, Fiona, and Laura all knew the lies long before I knew. That is also my fault by the way. It is my fault that my BFF’s knew Derek was lying to me and didn’t say a word till after it all blew up.

It is obvious that people have chosen sides at this point. Either you hate me and think I am bashing an innocent person. Or you are on my side and wish you could say what I am saying without any backlash. People have said they are afraid for me. What is there to be afraid of? The facts are still the same. I am the victim. I am the one who is being stalked, threatened, bullied, criminal threats made against me, attempted murder, domestic violence and so on. All of that is my fault, right? It is all my fault that I chose to date a bi-polar man. It is my fault that he was normal and medicated when we met. It is my fault that for some odd reason Kathleen Divine chose Derek over me. It is my fault that my other friend was a dirty whore and slept with Derek. It is my fault that Kathleen Divine posted photos on the internet so I could see them together just one week later. It is my fault that I met Derek in the first place at that damn Lounge. Everything is always the fault of the victim. Blame the rape victim because they were raped. If I had never done any of the above things then none of these bad things would be happening is the message people are trying to shovel my way. If it smells like bullshit then it is bullshit. None of this is my fault. When things went bad I got out ASAP and never looked back. People ask me if Kathleen Divine and I will ever be friends again. No, not in my lifetime. I have given her everything I had to give and more. There is nothing left, no friendship to save. I am not into being controlled and told how to feel. Being her friend is one sided. Read some of the older posts in case you forgot how Kathleen Divine really is.

Bitch about my Blog all you want. Bitch about it loud and clear. Make sure you send people the link so they can read it for themselves. Hate it or love it, the fact remains that you’re still reading it. You never know what I will say or do next. My life is crazy as you can read for yourself. 
By the way that is also my fault .
MoMo Out!