The Easy Way Out!

Some would say food addiction isn't possible because we can’t live without food. Others say the high you get when you eat certain foods is the same high as a narcotic drug. I have always said food is my drug of choice. Food is so many things to me. It is good times, bad times, hard time, family times, friends time and much more. We eat when we are sad, mad or glad. We eat to live but some live to eat. I watched a good friend of mine eat himself to death from his addiction to food. No matter what he did, he had no control. He would run out of food and call me asking for help. I couldn't let him starve so I would bring food that he would have to cook so it would last longer. The amount of food he consumed in a day was more than enough to feed a family of five people. That was my first introduction to food addiction. I had no idea I was in the same boat as my friend. As time went on my food became more and more out of control. I have no idea how many calories I consumed in a day. If I had to guess it could be 6000 or more. None of it was healthy low calorie food. I drank soda in place of water. Regular soda loaded with corn syrup fructose. I drank at least a couple of two liters of soda a day. I ate donuts like they were chops and dip. Pizza, fast food, fried foods, Chinese take out loaded with sweet sauces and of course fried. There was no end in sight. My only goal was planning my next meal. I would still be chewing and day dreaming about what I wanted to eat next.

I decided to have gastric bypass surgery and lost 300 pounds. I have changed my life 100%. The wanting and craving for bad foods is under control most days. Now I have consequences for my actions when I binge on sugar. After eight years post op I have learned that it will be a fight every day of my life. With therapy from someone who deals with eating disorders, food addiction and binge eating disorder I have learned many tools to control my triggers. I still suffer from depression and anxiety. During those times it is the hardest to control. I want to emotionally eat in the hope of self soothing myself. I find that when I discuss this within the BBW Community I am met with hostility. People read things into my comments and make up what they felt I meant instead of reading what I said and take it as is. I always say what I mean and mean what I say. I am an open book when it comes to my food addiction, gastric bypass surgery the good the bad and the ugly of the whole experience.

I believe people shoot out their anger towards me for many reasons. Some may be jealous or have some sort of envy because they are afraid to do what I did. My story was not all roses, peaches and cream. It was one hell of a fight and the fight is not over till the fat lady sings and I am not ready to sing yet. Even death knocking at your back door does not motivate some people to start to make changes towards a better quality of life. Some choose to be alone and become trapped in their own body, their home and even in just their bed. That is not living life to me. I struggle to walk and the pain I feel with every step I take is over a level ten on the pain scale. Yet I get up and move slowly at my own pace. I had to learn to walk all over again during my first year post op. Living in a bed and being in a wheelchair is not my idea of a good time. I fight, I struggle, I cry, I hurt all over my body but I don’t give up on myself. I did not butcher my body by choosing to have gastric bypass surgery. I resent the constant insults from people who are anti weight loss surgery. Respect my choice. Not once have I ever told someone to have surgery. It is their body and their choice to do as they see fit. If you want to butcher yourself as the anti weight loss police put it then have at it. If you want to sit home behind your computer trapped in bed spewing your angry venom towards other people who are being pro active with their own lives then have at it. Just leave me out of it. Yeah, the dead people can’t talk to say no I don’t recommend surgery. You can die either way. I had a 50/50 shot so I rolled the dice. I was going to die anyway, I had nothing left to lose.

I enjoy my new life much better. I like being able to walk even though it hurts and I need a cane. I like not going to a fast food place. I like cooking my own meals so I control what I put in my body. I still feel guilty when I have a binge. I am only hurting myself, yet at times I have no control. I am truly sorry for the ones that didn't make it, but you can die from any surgery. You can’t be angry at the surgery. Yes be angry you lost a loved one, but don’t blame the ones that survived their surgery. We have no control who lives or dies. Post op you find out who your real friends are. They say the person has changed. Of course they have changed they see a new world. That doesn’t have to be a bad thing, just be there to support them not spew hate about butchery. FYI food addiction is very real and so is binge eating disorder. You can now find info in medical journals. Do your own research if you want to know more. As far as I am concerned my surgery was a success. I have lived almost 8 years longer than doctors said I would if I had not had surgery. You can read my complete story about the last 7 years of my life post op in the archives of my Blog.
MoMo Out!

Random Losers and the Douchebag of the Week #6

• Conversation started October 10
• 
  10/10, 1:27am
  Albert Sanchez Escobar
  You are beautiful and do not ask why, it's my word and I love you as a friend.
  
• October 13
• 
  10/13, 3:01am
  
• Albert Sanchez Escobar
  You are beautiful and do not ask why, it's my word and I love you as a friend.
  
• 
  10/13, 4:54am
  Biggirl Gear
  Who are you talking to? Do you know this is a business for Plus size clothing?
  
• Seen Oct 13

• Conversation started August 19
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  8/19, 7:08am
  Ali A Joktan
  Hi
  
• August 28
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  8/28, 7:39am
  Ali A Joktan
  good morning
  
• October 6
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  10/6, 8:53am
  Ali A Joktan
  Hi
  
• October 13
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  10/13, 4:55am
  Biggirl Gear
  How can I help you?
  
• Seen Oct 13

• Conversation started April 29
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  4/29, 2:10pm
  Rolan Mohamed
  Princess happy to visit your file and I was very honored to request friendship and tell my pleasure to visit your profile and I hope that we communicate together in all honesty, sincerity and I have the privilege of friendship Madam virtuous wishes you to be one of the happiest women ground
  
• September 21
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  9/21, 3:18pm
  Rolan Mohamed
  You all the thanks and appreciation that are worth more than all the meanings of beauty I'm looking for love and family relationship and I hope to have the honor of communicating
  You all the thanks and appreciation that are worth more than all the meanings of beauty I'm looking for love and family relationship and I hope to have the honor of communicating
  
• October 13
• 
  10/13, 4:59am

Biggirl Gear

Who are you and why are you writing a plus size clothing business looking for love? We sell clothing not women.
Seen Oct 13

• Conversation started October 10
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  10/10, 11:23pm
  Wallace Mark
  hello dear can i
  
• October 13
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  10/13, 2:45am
  Wallace Mark
  Thanks
  
• 
  10/13, 4:53am
  Biggirl Gear
  Can you what?
  
• 
  10/13, 6:14am
  Wallace Mark
  Tell you that you are very pretty and beautiful
  
• October 13
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  10/13, 9:59am
  Biggirl Gear
  You are writing to a Plus size clothing business. Any photos you see are of models wearing the clothing sold on line. So basically you are writing to no one. Get a life please or maybe write to JcPenny next time.

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  7/22, 11:24pm
  Calvin Naidoo
  I love big women babe

Sent from Mobile

• Conversation started April 8
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  4/8, 11:22pm
  Brendan Pat
  How are you doing today. I must say you look so beautiful and amazing,your profile caught my attention. What pride is in a man who doesn't appreciate an interesting beautiful princess like you,I am Brendan by name and will like to know more about you if you don't mind. Thanks
  
• Conversation started April 23
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  4/23, 5:48am
  KõĶî MǿĤămęđ
  hi sexy
  
• Conversation started June 29
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  6/29, 5:42pm
  Aek Ka
  hello how r u
  
• Conversation started July 25
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  7/25, 10:12am
  Baby Kinganga
  nice picture, can find one for me?
  best regard.
  
• Conversation started July 28
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  7/28, 1:01am
  ManOj KumAr
  Hello can i be your friend, you are so cute,saw your pic. Post on a group.
  
• Sent from Mobile
  
• Conversation started August 8
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  8/8, 4:20am
  Kazem Messay
  I love Big Girl Gear i want become Friends add me plz if u not mind plz bye
  
• Conversation started August 23
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  8/23, 11:55am
  Hamza Elshebli
  hi are u cant sex with me
  
• Conversation started October 30
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  10/30, 3:01am
  Lovem Elong Time
  May God be with you on this day, let His love lift you up, and His grace carry you.

Notice his screen name is “love me long time” yet he writes about God. I really need to know why this man is off his meds LOL. His note is creepy and reminds me of a serial killer.

• Conversation started Saturday
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  11/2, 2:16pm
  Jossy Micdun
  beautiful cutie......... i love biggirl. they rock really.

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  5:34am
  Biggirl Gear
  Did you forget that I already told you this is a plus size clothing company. Why are you writing to a business asking about the women in the adds?

This was a post in a group on Facebook, an add for Big Girl Gear.

• 

• Biggirl Gear

• New items have been added to our clearance page. It's the end of one season and the start of our next. Don't miss out on what we have left on sale. Our prices can't be beat Shop with us 24/7 at www.biggirlgear.com

• 

Jean Yves Diby

• hello beautiful ldy?
  
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  Biggirl Gear
  
• Jean Yves Diby you comment on every female in here. Now you are commenting to an add for plus size clothing. The women in these photos are models for the company. Next time why don't you write to the Macy's catalog. I am sure they won't write back but maybe now you will see how desperate you look to others.
  
• 
  Jean Yves Diby
  
• I want to apologize because I have not read up before sending the message, I did not mean, now I also want aYou say I'm not a hopeless as you want to tell others or as you imagine. These are errors that happens, I apologize.
  
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  Romeo Cutinha
  
• wow nice beautifu and very good shape figure of your body with sweet cute beauty.
  
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  Biggirl Gear
  
• There was no error. You are just spamming all of the women you see. It is pathetic.

• Conversation started October 12
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  10/12, 12:29am
  Nafti Hedi
  hello
  
• October 13
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  10/13, 2:46pm
  Nafti Hedi
  hi
  
• October 16
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  10/16, 1:39pm
  Nafti Hedi
  hi
  
• October 20
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  10/20, 3:37am
  Monique
  Hi who are you?
  
• October 21
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  10/21, 3:13am
  Nafti Hedi
  Hi im hedi
  
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  10/21, 4:41am
  Monique
  Why did you decide to write to me?
  
• October 21
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  10/21, 10:40am
  Nafti Hedi
  Coz im interested in you
  
• October 21
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  10/21, 3:36pm
  Monique
  What for? Where do you live?
  
• October 22
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  10/22, 1:23am
  Nafti Hedi
  Im from tunisia. Haw about you
  
• 
  10/22, 1:53am
  Monique
  I live in a land far far away from you and see no point in this conversation. Unless you own a jet and can fly over for a drink then what is the point to any of this?
  
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  10/22, 3:03am
  Nafti Hedi
  Yes but we can chat its ok for me i like that only if you dont like. We can see us by cam. I prefer to chat with a real woman like u monique
  
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  10/22, 3:28am
  Monique
  I don't want to chat there is no point. It would be a waste of my time. Have a nice life and good bye.
  
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  10/22, 5:05am
  Nafti Hedi
  Why its waste of time. But u have others freinds in fb its waste of time? So what do u like
  
• October 22
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  10/22, 4:18pm
  Monique
  I would like you to go away and never write to me again. Never ever write me back.
  
• November 4
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  11/4, 1:00pm
  Nafti Hedi
  hi
  
• 11/12
• 
  11:45am
  Monique
  You didn't get the message did you? I told you never write me again and I do not want to be your friend.

This dude would not give up. He wrote me back over and over again even though I said go away. People are crazy! He earned a repost and the new parts of his convo have been added. So long Nafti Hedi you are the douchebag of the week. Jossy Micdun is the random loser of the week. Congrats guys, you get nothing.

• Conversation started September 6
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  9/6, 12:48am
  Wd Omdur
  cute pls add me
  
• November 5
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  11/5, 1:14am
  Wd Omdur
  cute pls add me
  
• November 12
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  11/12, 11:44am
  Monique
  Why should I add you?

Seen Nov 12 yet no reply from him. Loser!

• Conversation started October 27, 2012
• 
  10/27, 12:11pm
  Nelson Kelvin
  How are u doing today. Am sorry if I intrude on you for the first time of writing this kind of message to you. Just that I do not know how to express the conflicting emotions that have surged like a storm through my heart when cross checking your profile here on Facebook.But I only know that first and foremost in all my thoughts has been the glorious confirmation cos you look more precious and potential in looking as a woman who deserve honor. says more about you but to say all in one sentence, you most be a woman with good heart.You soo pretty I don't know why your profile say single,if so then men around you don't know what an angel look like cos its so easy to know u one, you carried that in your name and your look, even the blind can see you are an angel cos u smell like one. Well I know what its cost to see one and also have what it takes to keep one. I will love to know u better plz accept my welcome. Tell me if I put a smile on your face reading this,You are more wonderful and lovely in my eyes and heart, and my pride and joy and gratitude that you should love my word with such a perfect understanding and beyond all expression. cos if i don't then u hate my pics and my message. jeff

Notice the profile name is different than the name he used at the end of this message. Is he Nelson Kelvin or is he Jeff? He could be Jesus Christ for all we know in his mind.

• Conversation started March 17
• 
  3/17, 1:04am
  Facebook User
  can you bee on my face? i like it
  
• March 20
• 
  3/20, 12:45am
  Facebook User
  can you make me like toilet ?
  
• May 11
• 
  5/11, 1:08am
  Facebook User
  how can you use toilet?

Another person off his meds. SMH I saw no need to reply to this sick person.

• Conversation started July 19
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  7/19, 3:12pm
  Christian Mancuso
  Hello i love plus girl and sbbw, add me plese, tx,

• Conversation started July 21
• 
  7/21, 3:35am
  George Safwat
  hi,iam George, you really look so cute one and pretty too alot and i wish we become friends,sorry if i ask that and you not know me but all i wish to have friend like you ,because i look for good friendship only ,so you accept to be your friend??? i will wait your reply

I think he is still waiting, LOL.

• Conversation started July 27
• 
  7/27, 7:38am
  Idris Kofi
  Walk and touch peace every moment. Walk and touch happiness every moment. Each step brings a fresh breeze. Each step makes a flower bloom under our feet. Kiss the Earth with your feet. Print on Earth your love and happiness. Earth will be safe when we feel in us enough safety. I love to be your friend so add accept me
  
• 
  7/27, 8:51am
  Idris Kofi
  

• Conversation started October 20, 2012
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  10/20, 10:28am
  Ayman Mahamoud
  hi princess hope be friends have great day take care
  
• November 20, 2012
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  11/20, 10:05am
  Ayman Mahamoud
  hi hope be friends have great day
  
• March 20
• 
  3/20, 7:34am
  Ayman Mahamoud
  hi hope be friends have great day
  
• June 27
• 
  6/27, 7:57pm
  Ayman Mahamoud
  hi princess hope be friends hve great day thx princess
  
• July 29
• 
  7/29, 2:17pm
  Ayman Mahamoud
  hi hope be friends thx
  
• August 9
• 
  8/9, 9:35pm
  Ayman Mahamoud
  hi hope be friends thx
  
• August 18
• 
  8/18, 11:35am 2013
  Ayman Mahamoud
  hi hope be friends thx

For one year this person sent these messages. I just opened them today. Really dude after no answer the first time you should have received the hint. These Blogs can go on forever. Be warned if you write to me you do so at your own risk. I am sure I will make fun of your own stupidity.

• Conversation started December 25, 2011
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  12/25, 2:10pm
  Blue Feroz
  
  Hi
• December 26, 2011
• 
  12/26, 11:16pm
  Monique
  Hello.
  
• December 30, 2011
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  12/30, 9:21am
  Blue Feroz
  How r u my dear?
  
• January 6, 2012
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  1/6, 6:05am
  Monique
  Fine how are you?
  
• January 7, 2012
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  1/7, 11:40am
  Blue Feroz
  Fine honey whats up?
  
• January 19, 2012
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  1/19, 10:02am
  Blue Feroz
  Hi dear?
  
• January 19, 2012
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  1/19, 5:44pm
  Monique
  Can we get to the point. Why the one sentence messages? I am fine by the way.
  
• January 26, 2012
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  1/26, 12:07pm
  Blue Feroz
  Coz i dont no more
  
• January 26, 2012
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  1/26, 6:03pm
  Monique
  Are you fluent in English or do you only know a little bit of English?
  
• February 6, 2012
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  2/6, 10:59am
  Blue Feroz
  Yep honey i speak b little bit.now frnds?
  
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  2/6, 11:08am
  Blue Feroz
  Yes i speak little bit
  
• September 7
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  9/7, 1:03pm
  Blue Feroz
  Hi sexy Sent from Daska, Punjab, Pakistan

• Conversation started September 11 2013
• 
  9/11, 8:08am
  Cypriano Akinwunmi
  Hello Sweet Morgan and how are u doing?i am Cypriano.i am a keen,conscientious,reliable,loving and caring man of integrity with good moral and family values.saw u on facebook and interested in getting 2 know u.i am seeking your consent in friendship.lets connect so we can get 2 know ourselves better.i must confess you look sexy in that pic of yours.. a real sexy BBW who is worth it.hope 2 hearing 4rm u soon.stay blessed.You are remarkably big,beautiful,sexy and elegant.Do keep it up.

Since when is my name Morgan? He is from Nigeria by the way.
MoMo Out!